Dreams

I had such a weird dream last night that I have to get it on paper (screen) before I forget it.

In the dream, I drove somewhere to visit Diane, Lucha, & Tyler. I was so excited to see them. It was like most dreams...they lived in Chicago yet they really didn't. The house/business was the same yet it really wasn't. Some things were familiar, some weren't.  The place they lived was rural instead of in the city....lots of trees, no neighbors, lots of grass.
 I drove up and Diane and Lucha came out to greet me. Now here's the really weird thing....Lucha had bright pink & green tortoise-shell (like a cat) markings on her. I was surprised to see how bright they were...almost neon......because when she'd been my foster her green and pink markings had been very pale. In the dream, it seemed completely natural that she was marked this way, and I commented that she must be super healthy for them to be so bright. (I told you this dream was weird!)

Diane and I went inside her house to have coffee and when I sat down Lucha jumped right up on my lap and looked at me very intently. I told Diane,  "I think she really & truly remembers me, even though it's been years since we've seen each other!" I remember feeling very happy that Lucha remembered me as I hugged her and fussed over her.

I can remember wanting to reach across the table where we were having coffee to take Diane's hand and tell her everything that was pent up inside of me about Muddy Paws and the deaths, but I just couldn't quite bring myself to do it. I was too afraid that I would start to cry or get angry.

In the dream at this point, it was 12:50 p.m. and Diane said that Tyler would be getting home at 1:00...the school bus dropped him off at the end of their rural driveway. I stayed long enough to see Tyler walking up the driveway and as he got closer I realized that I didn't recognize him. It was not the same child that I knew before.

and then, I either woke up or switched to my other weird dream that I had last night.

Not sure what it all means, or if it means anything at all.